the yellow wallpaper

This story was very hard to read. So I proceeded slowly. I feel this story is very horrible. There is only thing disturbing her mind. It is yellow wallpaper. But she draw a lot of unpleasant information from it. I think person who has ordinary condition can't imagine so much from one thing. It is very scary thing. According to Wikipedia, nervous disease has following symptom; panic, insomnia,sense of self valueless. It may true to this woman.
I think this story should be read connected with feminism. She engaged in feminism activity. At that time, women were restricted within patriachal society. Man thought women that entity who take care of him and make him get back his dignity. Conflicted this idea, women were expected to get married and work in household.  social notion that women should serve men had prevailed. In this story, heroine sometimes express this notion. She says "he takes all care from me, and so I feel basely ungrateful not to value it more."
I think although she is weaken by disease, she hope to be his comfort too seriously. So she thinks she doesn't help her husband. this thought reinforce her weakness.
That is why, she begins to lose her sense gradually. And she complains to him that her disease for sometimes.But he doesn't take them seriously. And what is worse, she hesitates to express her feeling taking care of her husbad. This hesitation derives from notion of patriachal society. She want to help her husband, but dear person doesn't understand her feeling. this despair get her mad dicisively.
When she becomes to have this despair, she find shadow of woman. If she can inform husband of this phenomenon, her destiny would change positively. But she can't do it. She became skeptical to her family. She thought shadow of woman is confined bar. She may associate it with her situation, anyone is not reliable,thet is, bound with this room. In this lonely situation, only shadow of woman becomes her comfort.So she decides to free this woman from bars. But this practically, she doesn't have tie with someone, and she starts to creep her room with madness.  When she almost finishes to peel off the yellow wallpaper, she says "I've got out at last". it imply her success in escaping from this restrictive condition burdened her.
Also, I think color used in this story becomes important indication of her mind. First, I'll talking about the color yellow.  The color yellow is founded on yellowcard and crossing, so called warning color. This coor imply message don't go any more, that is, restriction. in the first period, heroine dislikes this color wallpaper. it express she keep her sense. In story's later period, she choose yellow rather than green.  The color green used for traffic signals, and it's image of fresh green associate with positive mieaning, safety, growth, and boys. This choise indicates her change.


This is my impression. This week I have a lot of homework. It must be very hard days.